Transferring to the hospital after a home birth and all the guilt, grief and feeling of failure that came with it.
After giving birth to my son at home (in the middle of the living room), I had to make a hard decision - to transfer or not to transfer to the hospital. This episode is about that decision and all the emotions that flooded me - the guilt, the shame, the grief and the feeling of failure.
This is also the beginning of not only having my son Earth side, but also learning to cultivate more compassion for myself (which is still in progress).
In this episode you'll find themes like:
The Arrival of Leo
The Birth Experience & Decisions Made
The Beauty of the Placenta
The Hospital Transfer & Guilt
Reflections of Control & Grief
The Impact of Online Birth Narratives
Self Compassion & Healing
The Hospital Experience & New Beginning
It's an emotional story but even by recording it so much has shifted within. I trust that you will listen to it with your heart open and warm.
Lots of love,
Annamaria, xx