In this episode, I share my postpartum journey as an initiation — from the collapse of my carefully made plans to a deeper remembering of my inner power. We explore matrescence, the good girl survival pattern, the wild woman archetype, maternal lineage, and how motherhood took me into an underworld I didn’t know existed. I reflect on how Human Design, ancestral inquiry, and being witnessed by other mothers helped me reconnect with myself and build a nourishing mother-woman ecosystem. This episode also introduces motHERstory, an online space for mothers ready to honour their lived experience and consciously shape their own story.
When I was pregnant, I had a plan.
It was color-coded, cross-referenced, and carefully mapped out: at three months postpartum, I would return to work. I would launch programs. I would coach again. The maiden in me was determined to survive motherhood.
None of it happened.
What followed instead was a freefall — into postpartum, into identity death, into sleepless nights, illness, grief, shattered boundaries, and a nervous system stuck in survival. The first year of motherhood felt less like an arrival and more like an underworld descent.
In this episode, I share my motHERstory — not as a success narrative, but as an initiation.
I speak about:
The shock of matrescence and the lack of language for it
The shame of “knowing better” and still falling apart
The difference between loving your child and surviving motherhood
The good girl who needed control — and the wild woman who waited beneath her
How giving birth became my wolf cry
And how only years later I can see the immense power that was carrying me all along
This conversation weaves together my postpartum journey, my relationship with my mother and maternal lineage, the stories we inherit without consent, and the tools that helped me remember myself — including Human Design, gentle embodiment practices, and being witnessed by other mothers.
Motherhood softened my grip on control.
It brought me closer to my wildness.
It taught me that power doesn’t roar — sometimes it undercurrents.
This episode also marks the birth of motHERstory — an online space for mothers who feel the pull to understand their story more deeply. Not to fix it. Not to optimise it. But to witness it, honour it, and consciously shape what comes next.
Motherhood is not something we perform.
It’s something we live.
And every mother carries a story worth remembering.